So this last week I have been unmotivated. I've had such a hard time staying away from bad foods, and ontop of it...I broke my brand new scale...:( I dunno if it was from my weight, or if I stepped on it wrong but it still broke. The bad part is, while it was breaking, it said that I gained 10 lbs. Now, this can't be possible, but it still made me so super upset that I almost lost it.
The last couple days have been a little better though. I have been trying to work out, and I've been eating a salad from Mazzios! Granted, it has ranch, but I keep the ranch in a cup and dip my salad. At least that way, it's a few less calories. I look at it like this, I can't deprive myself of ALL things good or I WILL fail. This way, I'm getting my salad and calories for taste. Hopefully it helps....
I've been super stressed lately as well. Between new phone contracts, work, money, family, and kids I feel like I'm spiraling out of control. I really need some new motivation.....The new jeans I bought are still size 26...even with the 20lbs *ish* gone, I am still huge.....ugh..I hate this stuff for real....
As everyone sits at work eating away on their Taco Bell tonight, I will be having a Slim-Fast.....*sigh* I am trying to tell myself that all these small people don't have an eating disorder and I do, so they are allowed to eat what they want, when they want...even if it's in front of me. Gotta learn to avoid!
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