Straight through Sunday blues....

So it's day 1 of changing my life around. For about the past week I have been uberly excited about embarking on this new way of eating and life, but as the days went on I lost vigor, so now i'm just gonna jump on in! The reason for not starting when I was ready, was because I was told to wait until I had an appointment with this health clinic down town. As the days went on, I grew less and less excited, so I decided to just go ahead and take the reigns myself! It isn't a bad thing for just going ahead and doing it, I just won't be counted at my starting weight and stuff. To be honest, it shouldn't matter what it says on the doctors file, because ultimatley it's about ME bettering myself... and so I start...

After I got off work this morning at 6:30am, I went straight to Wal-Mart and bought some Slim-Fast, some salad mix, baby carrots, and apple packs! When I work up later on, I had a Slim-Fast and an apple pack for my 'breakfast.' Not quite as filling as I would like, but it did it's job I guess. Now I am sitting at work waiting for my lunch! LOL. I guess that is the worst part about detoxing...you are ALWAYS thinking about when you can eat again, even if it's minimal. Oh well, I HAVE to do this this time around...

I have always been comfortable with my personality, and even my looks most of the time, but my weight is finally starting to take it's toll on my heart. I feel like I look horrible, and no matter what I do, nothing can hide this hideous body under the clothes. Even though my blood work up and stuff was perfect, I still feel like I can't do this anymore. I NEED this change to finally be 'me'....